Juggling the oranges of life

Being lazy and things of that nature.

I can’t juggle oranges.  A small fact about my self that I thought I should just share with you. What I’ve recently realized is that apparently I’m also not very good at juggling things in my life. There seems to be a recurring theme in my life where I think of great idea, a new task or hobby  that I plan to take on, go full steam ahead. And then a few weeks go by and I’ve soon forgotten about it all.  To be honest that cycle hasn’t ever really bothered me, mainly because  I clearly wasn’t that interested if I can’t be bothered to do after a few weeks, not to mention that it is in my nature to often get over excited/ too carried away with things at times.

But when this cycle happens with things that you actually really want to do then there is a clear problem. I’m lazy. I’m not proud of it but I will admit it.  I have a super creative mind and tons of ideas but executing these Ideas doesn’t come so easy. To be the best in whatever your chosen passion is you have to work at, and by work at it I don’t just mean think about it for hours.  Real time and effort comes in many different forms, whether it be researching, investing in the literature, finding your faults and best features.  However, this is definitely easier said than done especially when you are doing other things like at University studying an intensive course.

So I can’t juggle oranges. But I do want to practice and try to juggle all the things in my life. I may not always succeed and be the best  at everything I do. And to be perfectly honest I don’t want to be. I just want to be the best at me because that truly is the only thing I can be, everything else outside of that is just fake.   This does by no means gives me a valid reason not to try. So this is  really just a self-confession to all of you to say that I am aware of how absent I’ve been from by blog and new YouTube channel. I’m  learning how to do all things I love in life whilst managing all the things I need to do in terms of my responsibilities. So here is  to not being lazy and giving yourself a kick up the butt. Because in truth no one else going to do it for you.


This week we’ve had mothers day and international women’s day. It seemed only fitting that I would write a related piece  on one of the most inspiring women I know.

What does it mean to be a woman? An impossible question. A question with no real answer. There is no definition of what it means to be a woman. Sure we have  stereotypes and gender norms of what we think a women ought to be but, in reality a woman is whatever she makes herself to be. There is no right or wrong way to be women.

Yesterday the 8th of March marked the international women’s day 2016. As the official website says:

International Women’s Day (March 8) is a global day celebrating the social, economic, cultural and political achievements of women. The day also marks a call to action for accelerating gender parity. www.internationalwomensday.com

It is a day we across the world celebrate amazing women who have achieved great things  and are  bringing us just one step closer to equality. When I see the word woman. I see strength and might. I think of a badass and beauty. I think of soul and something so unique that it has been intriguing the world since time began.  But mostly importantly I think of my mother. What better occasion than for me to celebrate the woman who has taught me an immeasurable amount of life lesson and has given me the tools I needed to shape me into the woman I am today.

One thing I am super grateful of is that my mum taught me to accept my flaws and to embrace myself just the way I am which, is what makes me perfect and unique. After all there would be no point in God creating two of me. Right?

My big lips, my afro hair and broad nose were all perfect in her eyes. Now granted when I was younger I didn’t really appreciate all this wisdom being bestowed upon me. I thought she was just been an over bearing strict mother. I wasn’t allowed to really wear makeup, relax my hair and weaves were out of the question. However, there was a method behind the madness and it was to force me to accept my natural features. So when I was old enough to make a conscious decision about how I looked I could do it with the mind-set that no matter what I have on or how I do my hair. I will always be beautiful. My mum also gave me the freedom to self-express and to be happy in the choices I make. I was able to find myself and make my own decisions on what type of women I wanted to be.

Another rule in my house that was enforced was, that I was never allowed to talk bad about myself. I would get in trouble when I would say things like ‘’oh I’m just bad a spelling” or “I can’t do that!”  I always thought, again, that my mother was just being over dramatic. I mean I was just bad at spelling.   But really she didn’t like me enforcing any negative perspective about myself.  Unknowingly  to me I was installed with the idea that I can do all that I put my mind to.  It is something similar to the power of positivity. My mother (and I) really do believe that if you speak things out into the universe they come to pass. Negative thoughts equate to negative actions.

My mum taught me that strength comes in all shapes and sizes. I was taught that there is no shame in showing your emotions and just being yourself.  Furthermore, (and mostly importantly)  opinions of others  don’t define you and you should never let them. That I should never hesitate to be the loudest in the room and speak my thoughts.

And for that I will be eternally grateful.




A open letter to all those who have a opinion on mine.




1.any of the fine thread-like strands growing from the skin of humans, mammals, and some other animals.


It’s seems like today everyone is talking about hair. There is not a day that seems to go by without some sort of new trend being created whether its glitter parting or denim dyed hair.It is amazing  how much hair can mean to someone. It is bigger than just the superficiality of looking good and what that does to your self-esteem. To some extent hair can really define a person, whether it is their femininity  or as a  symbol of a new start in their life.

I recently decided to cut my hair and now rock my short little afro (or tiny weeny afro as some like to say). I have never been super obsessed with my hair and would just casually chose what style I wanted, when I wanted it, depending  on what I felt. But cutting my hair  has introduced me to a new perspective and way of thinking that I didn’t realize had been installed in me from such a young age. Being afro Caribbean, hair is a huge part of our culture,  and has played a big part in my life.  It is moments like the bonding experience of a mother doing a daughter’s hair or the rite of passage when you learn how to correctly cornrow.  Just caring for my afro textured 4c type afro could be a job in its self and lets not talk about the all the hours I have spent in the hair shop getting my braids installed. So believe  me when I say I understand why hair is so important as well as the scope and depth of the attachment we can have to it, in particular how it can define our beauty.

Cutting my hair has taught me one thing.  That people will always have an opinion on my hair, even though I never asked them to. For some strange reason when a black girl decides to cut her hair short it soon becomes a topic of everyone’s conversation. My hair is my choice and if you do not like them please I advise you take that up with your god because that is a message that I don’t not want to receive.  You cannot place you narrow-minded conceptions about my hair onto to me so stop trying to. I am not on some sort of spiritual self-discovery journey because guess what I’ve been natural my whole life. Nor am I in a rebellious teenage stage trying to defy society norms. I just wanted short hair.  The fact that you may see it as unkempt and unprofessional is irrelevant because I refuse to believe that my god given natural hair is anything less than perfect.  I’ve had strangers try to touch my hair. Friends and family integrate me on why I would do such a terrible thing and have even had someone straight up look me in my eyes and tell me he doesn’t like it.

I’ve always described myself as confident and outgoing. I would say that I also have high self-esteem, and have been sure of who I am from a very young age. But I’m not inhuman. Certain comments, remark and stares do eventually get to you. You do start to worry about whether you look attractive enough, will people start to think you look like a boy.  All of sudden you want to hide away and then proceed to wish that you never cut it in the first place. Words do mean things, and when you are a young black girl in a world where you are constantly told you are less than, those words carry an extra bite.

It is of no help that distinctly black hairstyles that have been part of our cultures for years are all of a  sudden the hot new trends for celebrities and the runway. Bantu knots are now ‘Space Knots’, Cornrows are ‘boxer braids’ and everyone wants dreads.  I understand  that all this talk of culture appropriation is exhausting  and useless to  some of you.  While I am not purposely trying to come off as the angry bitter black women here, there is no escaping that it is very real thing and part of why people of colour across the world struggle with self-love.

Why? Well what it simple does is tell people of colour that their features and cultural styles will always been viewed as prettier on someone who is white.  And that damages the soul.

In reality I have much more important things to focus on than what people think of my hair and I should not be made to feel ugly or uncomfortable to let my hair stay in its natural state. So next time you want to comment on someone’s hair take a second to self-examine why you feel the need to say something (especially when they haven’t asked). Think about why you have these preconceived notions about short kinky hair. Why is my hair only beautiful when it’s straight or very loosely curled? Why does the length of my hair determine how feminine I am or not? And why can’t I just cut my and it simply just be a haircut rather than new life style change and journey.

Loving oneself isn’t hard, when you understand who and what ‘yourself’ is. It has nothing to do with the shape of your face, the size of your eyes, the length of your hair or the quality of your clothes. It’s so beyond all of those things and it’s what gives life to everything about you. Your own self is such a treasure. – Phylicia Rashad 

#OscarsSoWhite part 2

I have many things that I am passionate about in this life. One thing that I’ve always loved was film and acting as it is such a beautiful and expressive art form.   So nothing quite irked than to hear today that NO ACTORS OF COLOUR WERE NOMINATED in any of the categories for this years Oscars.

Last year the hashtag #OscarsSoWhite was created by April Reign to highlight the blatant lack of people of colour nominated for the Oscars. This year it made an excellent  comeback , as twitter rightfully goes in on the Academy.

Here are some of my favourites.

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What really upset me about this was that this year there were such a diversity of really amazing films and actors to choose from, way too many for the Academy to ignore.

This is bigger than talented actors and actress of colour not getting the recognition from their  peers they deserve. The wider message is that  the Academy (and so  many other award shows suggest,) is that no matter how talented and hard you work at a project, that you will never be seen as good enough to earn these awards. It sends the wrong messages to every aspiring child of colour that once again people who look like them aren’t winners.

The fact that you can be the main lead of the movie and the whole plot could centred around you and your white co actor gets nominated and you do not , despite people claiming the film the best Rocky film since Rocky I (in regards to Michael B. Jordan in the film Creed).

Straight Outta Compton one of the biggest selling movies of the year, depicting such an influential group to Hip Hop (and culture in general) can be released, and the only people to be nominated are the three white screen writers is more than a just a shame.

It is time that actor’s and actresses of colour are recognised for the magically talented people they are.


20 Things Tumblr has taught me in 2015

  1. Black women are beautiful.
  2. All women of colour are beautiful.
  3. It’s okay to have high standards.
  4. Pronouns are important.
  5. Racism is alive and well.
  6. Sexism is alive and well.
  7. Other people do not have the power to define me.
  8. To stay woke you must be willing to always learn.
  9. Ignorance is alive and well.
  10. Words matter.
  11. There are some amazing people up to some amazing things.
  12. I don’t have to be apologies for my opinions.
  13. I have to acknowledge my privilege.
  14. I have a voice.
  15. To be me is a beautiful thing.
  16. Size doesn’t equate to beauty.
  17. Stretch marks are my tiger marks.
  18. Coconut oil  can do all things.
  19. The world is a big place.
  20. The world is a small place.

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Black Pete – Blackface alive and well

For last couple of months I have been studying in beautiful country of the Netherlands and I absolutely love it. The people, the culture and the architecture it is all so amazing and I would definitely  recommend this as a wonderful country to live in.  When one moves to a new country you immediately become subject to a whole new world of traditions. And as it is the holiday season I thought I would talk about a rather unique one.  Sinterklass.

Sinterklaas means Sint Klaas, or Saint Nicholas in English. On December 5th, Dutch families get together and exchange gifts. If the family has young children, Sinterklaas himself brings the presents to the door or through the chimney, usually in secrecy  or it’s done by one or more of his helpers.

On the surface this sounds like a wonderful tradition and nothing too different from Santa and his elves.  However, this Dutch tradition is rather problematic  and has recently been getting a lot of attention for the helpers in the story known as Black Pete.

 When Sinterklaas comes to Holland on his steamship from Spain in November, he brings along his cheeky helpers which then give out candies to the children 

Over the years Black Pete has gotten darker and darker ( they first started as Southern Europeans) and the story later developed that they were slaves .  As such, it is very common for the ‘Dutchies’ to dress up in traditional clothes and paint their face black. Many people have brushed this off saying that the dark skin is from the chimneys they climb down to, bring in the presents. But obviously this is not acceptable.  Why?  Other from the fact that ‘slaves’ are used to bring people presents it clearly is a use of Black face and deeply rooted in racism.

Black face occurred in the 19th century in the entertainment industry. It consisted of white actors having to play immensely offensive stock characters of black people with their face painted black, curly wigs and drawn on huge lips.

This was done with the sole purpose of mocking features of those of black African descent  and mannerisms  as they were consider inferior, ugly and in many cases animalistic. This huge level of ignorance was prominent everywhere and a various number of popular musical hall/ movie  characters were created like the Minstrels, Pickanianny, Jim Crow and Zip Coon. In the coming of the 20th century characters were toned down but still black roles were give to white actors as the thought of black people being in televised entertainment was out of the question.  All of these characters have played a huge part in propagating racial stereotypes that are still very prevalent today.

In short black face has a long deep-rooted history in the mocking and oppression of  black people and is very offensive and not acceptable for any one to do under any circumstances.Halloween costumes of your favourite rapper included.

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Local Input~ UNDATED -- DUTCH CHRISTMAS TOY -- Sint Nicholas and Zwarte Piet the helper to Sinterklaas (AKA: Dutch Santa Claus , Saint Nicholas ) - zwarte piet is also known as Black Piet Black Peter Black Pete / Fisher-Price


Black Pete despite being a  what the Dutch may call an innocent family tradition has clearly got some racist roots,  and with all honestly make me feel very uncomfortable as a black women to  be confronted  by this image splattered around everywhere from books to chocolates.  And I’m not the only one that has a problem with this, there have been several human right court cases that have  demanded  the removal  of the character suggesting that it infringes on human rights of black people. Multiple anti racist movements and protest have been occurring calling for the end of Black Pete. Even the UN has expressed its concerns about the tradition ( click here to read the article).

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Participants where T-shirts denouncing Black Pete as racist take part in a demonstration, Gouda, The Netherlands, 15 November 2014.


From speaking to the  Dutch people it is very clear that the majority of people don’t see this is as a race issue or have never even begun to see it as a problem.  In fact race as a whole is not nearly discussed in my opinion as much as it is in other countries  like the UK or the USA. The fact of the matter is the Netherlands like a lot of other nations  does have a horrid colonial past that can not just be erased, yet many Dutchmen seem to be in denial about a lot of racial issues . It may be a hard  pill to swallow but in 2015 it is in no way acceptable for this to be allowed.

As always I would love to hear your thoughts and opinions on the matter so leave comments below x





Starbucks and why religious people make having a faith hard for me

I am a Christian. I’ve been raised in the church my whole life and, five years ago I decided purely of my own accord that I would dedicate myself to God and get baptized. What I found out is the more and more I get deeper into my faith the harder it seems for me to want to stay in it. This has nothing to do with my relationship (or love) with God, but everything to do with my growing detest of people who spread hate and do the most ridiculous things in the name of God.

I often find my self ashamed of calling my self  a Christian at times when I think of some of the high-profile  things in the media recently  that  Christians have done in the name of Christ. This is heartbreaking.  To me no one should ever have to feel ashamed of something they believe in.  I’m my eyes, although I am a Christian I would never say I’m religious. To me I just have a faith. And yes there is a difference. To me religion is a man-made social construct  that draws away from the core of faith. It seems to make rules, regulations  and procedures that often excluded others for some sort of self-righteous purposes.  Faith to me is just a belief  in something  that you have no proof or give no reason to believe  but just do with all your heart, body, mind and soul. It regards a working relationship with God. That to me is  something personal between you and God and is not defined by how often you do or do not go into church what you wear or what type of  music you listen to.

Now you may have a lot of opinions on  Christianity  and to be honest  I  don’t  blame you but to me it is faith based on love. Love is  the core of every teaching and message in bible. It is not just any type of love, it is a love that is free from judgement and prejudice available to all.  So when I hear people spewing hated and judgement in the name  Christianity  it really does make my blood boil and make me not want to be associated to them.

Starbucks recently  has been having some  controversy surrounding their  decision to  change their Christmas edition cups from snowflakes and snowman to a plain red cup. Certain Christians  felt very offended that this cooperation did so. Going as far as to argue that   Christianity is  being under attacked (yep- you read that correctly that was one legit argument).  As a Christian I can tell you that I’ve never heard such rubbish in all my life.

Christmas is a celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ and love and family. Something that is up to an individual to celebrate. No one has an obligation to celebrate our traditions and our beliefs.  Starbucks has no obligation to include anything with the season what so ever.  More over if you look back at previous Starbucks designs your find out that all those little snowman and Christmas trees we love so much are actually based on the pagan tradition. Not only do you show that you have way too little going  in your life to be worried about red cup designs but also how petty and small-minded you are.  If your Christianity  is under threat because of a  cup design then clearly you Christianity  is not based on anything remotely  similar to teachings of Christ. Do you really believe that God is concerned with what the  Starbucks creative design team decided to do on their cups? With all the things going on today in the world and all the good that could be done why do your resort to this.   Quite frankly  if I am to be blunt,  you give your fellow  believers a bad name and it is stunts like this, charged by religious trolls, that make me want to draw back from my faith.

Are you religious or not? What are your  thoughts on this Starbucks Scandal? Do you struggle with your faith? Comment below x

Confession of a black girl

Ok so Im black but its not a novelty and sometimes people just ask the most annoying questions and quite frankly i’ve had it.

  1. Yes my hair is fluffy, kinky and curly and different to yours but please don’t call it clouds and touch it.
  2.  If I have short hair one day and box braids down to my bum their extensions and it most definitely didn’t grow that fast.
  3. No I don’t wash my hair every day, don’t be so shocked my hair is not designed for that.
  4. Yes I have to warp my hair up at night.
  5. No I do not talk like a white girl pigmentation is not accent or idiolect
  6. Being educated and not using slang doesn’t make me a Oreo or coconut or whatever nonsense you want to call me and discredit my blackness with.
  7. Don’t ask me if I can twerk.
  8. Yes i’m sassy and what!
  9. ‘You’re not like other black girls’ is not a compliment.
  10. My ethnicity  is not a fetish.
  11. I speak african as Africa is not a country but a continent made up 53 (mainland  and islands) thus there is not one singular language.
  12. Yes I can get a tan when i’m out in the sun.


Superstar turned expert on obesity.

This post is about the events that took place this week on the British television daytime show Loose women on ITV.  This week saw Jamelia a British singer/songwriter (best known for her song Superstar) join the panel and discuss the issue of plus size women (why this is even such an issue is beyond me but alas we digress).

*Now would be a good time to watch the video*


Now if you watched the video you would have seen that Jamelia stated that

“A huge proportion of our teenagers are well over the weight they should be. I am all for celebrating people as they are … but I do not think it’s right to facilitate people living an unhealthy lifestyle. I really don’t.”
“I do think that you should feel uncomfortable if you are unhealthy.”

Speaking as some who prides them selves on being an activist for body positivity I found what she said utterly disturbing and just plain wrong on so many levels.

1) Its fat shaming
2) Its skinny shaming
3) Your dress size doesn’t actually correlate to your health or your weight
4) It implied that if your above a certain size you don’t deserve to look good in clothes or have a decent selection of shops to shop at
5) Its doesn’t not encourage those who do have issues with weight or are trying to live a healthier life style to make the steps they need to reach their own personal goals
6) It doesn’t encourage anybody. FULL STOP. BLANK. PERIOD.

It caused quite a lot of outrage amongst people and she has since made a very weak apology stating that she was was talking about extremes ‘above a size 20, below a size 6…( because that makes it better.Right! Wrong) and the reaction has ‘ been absolutely awful (no sympathy here)but this is my job. I believe we are all entitled to our opinion.‘I genuinely love people and believe everyone has the right to feel wonderful and feel beautiful and it was never my intention to make people feel any less than what they are(are you sure about that).However, I still stand by my remarks.’

To be honest I really just wanted to cuss her out. No one asked for her opinion, how dare you make people feel insecure and ashamed about what size they are. So I suggest that you Jameila keep your degrading nasty comments to yourself and Loose women you would fare better to have dietitian/ nutritionist , fitness and health experts talk about health issue because they know what they are talking about.

But thankfully with every cloud comes a silver lining lining and a really sweet movement on social media has swept up in outrage of what was said on Loose Women courtesy of 32 year old blogger Debz #WeAreTheThey was started.

It has really has taken off over the past few days with women of all sizes taking a stand so at least all is not doom and gloom, I love seeing women of all sizes taking pride in their beautiful bodies.

Stay With Me the project – An interview with Henriette

I’ve met a lot of amazing people on my study abroad and one person I can say I am truly glad to have met is Henriette Reinhardt co-founder of an amazing new project called Stay With Me.

I decided that she was so inspiring that I wanted to interview her, so here is what happens when two girls get together over chai vanilla lattes and apples tarts.

Generation Y (anyone born after 93’) are often told that we are a lost generation who are running around with no direction. It’s always refreshing to see someone break that damaging stereotype and show that inspiration can come from anything.

What inspired you to get involved in environmentalism and green campaigning?

My mum inspired me because when I was 10 years old (or maybe 8) she had her own company which ended up in renewable energy. So I was introduced to environmental issues from a young age. However, the key of my inspiration was the 6th grade, in which we had a project on climate change and that really inspired me.

The debate on climate change and how we should tackle it, is so very long-standing. It is ever so important to remember that something does need to be done and done now. We have a huge responsibility to ourselves and this world in which we live in.

How important do you think it is that we take environmentalism seriously right now?

 I really think that we have taken action right now because if we don’t do it right now then it will just be too late and we can just pack our stuff and look for another planet or die.  For me the effects and the facts are clear and there is nothing to debate any more.

Explain what your project is and why you created it?

 I watched this movie it’s called plastic planet in class and there suddenly the whole dimension of the plastic problem became apparent to me for the first time, before that I had never really thought about it.   I spent half a year doing research on this topic because it really interested in me.  And then my best friend one day contacted me “Hey! Do you want to do a project with think big and maybe we could do it about plastic” and at that time I felt so passionate about it that at that time it felt like the right time.

Then we first got supported with 400 euros, the idea was initially to do workshops and design bags but we didn’t really know what dimension the project would take on. Eventually it moved to creating a glass bottle and we then managed to get a further 1000 euros in funding.  

Right now we have the vision of creating a glass bottle that had features like fruit infuser, cold and hot drinks. Just a bottle that really appeals to people not just because it not made out of plastic but because it is practical and convenient.

We want to move from this typical environmentalism, activism eco image to make sustainable and a sustainable lifestyle cool and admirable.

 For us it’s not really just about the bottle, the bottle just serves as a symbol of plastic because plastic bottles (and plastic bags) are just the most unnecessary things that are made out of plastic that we use a lot and throw away a lot.

Where do you see this project in 5 years’ time?

Eventually we want to introduce a new way of thinking into the world, as well as set a model for new entrepreneurship and youth engagement.  To tell people to go to your own way not just follow the usual steps to a career. We want to put out a message that people should take a step back and think about how they use products.

We want to sell different types of products i.e.) like a coffer tumbler. In general we want to do other projects as well, we really feel passionate about other things such as the current Syrian refugee crisis.  It’s not like I have clear idea about where we are going to be, but I think it’s the journey that matters.

What is your message to creative people out there thinking about creating their own project?

 Don’t wait for an idea to be perfect just go ahead and do it.  Go and develop stuff as you go and draw in a crowd and work with other people. Have direct contact with the consumers.

What has been the most rewarding thing about this project?

The best thing about the project has just been working on it. It’s not like university where someone is pushing me to do something. Writing, publishing , getting feedback , meeting people and working together is great.

What do you do in everyday life to be greener?

I am trying to live a zero waste life which it is really hard because you can’t be lazy and you cannot take short-term decisions. You have to really think about what you eat.  It’s a really a process. For example I never buy plastic bags and take a reusable bag everywhere I go. I never buy plastic bottles and I haven’t in really long time.

Describe yourself in 3 words

Real, Humorous and Thoughtful.

What would you like to be most known for?

For living a life according to the values that I stand for and that I’m an activist for. It is important to really live according to your values not just for the bigger picture but for yourself.

Favorite city

Paonia – US  Colorado

Favorite Food



Henriette is honestly one of the sweetest people you will ever meet. It’s been such a pleasure to know her and doing this interview was a total blast. Not only is the work she is doing for her project amazing but totally inspiring and encouraging . I wish her and her project nothing but the best.

To find more about project Stay with Me look at the links below.



Any other awesome youth projects you know about or perhaps are running yourself, spread the word and comment below x